one day you realize
your hands are caught
in the hardened cement
set who knows how long ago
ensnared on all fours
shackled to the ground
your neck and shoulders
can only wiggle around
can only squirm so much
as you try to look around
and to figure out what
might've happened, or when
you can hear the blaring
sounds of trucks backing up
their tires eating at the earth
feels like gnawing at your bones
their godly engines' deep whirring
like the purring of a dead cat
which is actually just the sounds
of the larvae writhing inside
the air tastes like sulfur
there are others here
others that look like you
lying hopeless on their stomachs
or with their backs arched ever
so slightly, trying to stretch
out of lethargy, trying
to ward the pain away
none of the others have any hair
and it dawns on you that although
you can't feel much of anything
you specifically cannot
feel yours either
and wonder if
it's still
there
they lower their heads
as soon as you try
to look at their eyes
you try to call them
but your voice is mute
and there simply is no way
in this uneventful predicament
of knowing if it's actually silent
or if it's being buried by
the ceaseless screams
of industry
you can see booted legs going around
walking by in an orderly fashion
and wonder if they feel freer
than you and your wristbound kin
your collarbones ache badly so you
instinctively roll your neck
which allows you to catch
the glimpse of a blurred figure
up in the operator's cabin
of one of the smaller
drone-like machines
hovering about
menacingly
and you cannot help
but to notice that
its eyes are set upon you
staring heavily, unnervingly
and it makes you slightly dizzy
the clouds hang low and smell like rot
and just as your thoughts
turn to hopelessly wondering
if there had been any moment
you could have done anything
to prevent any of it
some synapses in your brain
receive the soft impulse
like an unexpected whispering
travelling from far, far away
down on your left arm side
where you now remember
there was once a hand
a finger moves
timidly at first
frightenedly, almost
and then more agitatedly
and then another, and another
and soon you feel your whole hand
twitching, stretching, fluttering
from within your grouted captivity
moving in ways that definitely
defy the old laws of physics
both of your hands now
sprawling like roots
spreading under the ground
reaching, grabbing, piercing
thirsty for everything
an instinct of survival
found within, unforeseen
from the depths of despair
your fingernails scratching
digging through the foundations
crawling towards the unknown
until you meet another's hand
cautious at first, untrusting
but rapidly finding ways to share
to tame and disarm the waryness
and start swirling together
a playful bonding, love unearthed
recognizing the ungovernable relief
which inevitably sprouts and grows
from the undying magic of community
on the surface, nothing gives
as the destruction-addicted
go on with their business
yet underneath, even those
who can no longer breathe
are now holding hands, rooted
life calmly flowing around
in this weird, weird way
only it knows how
your eyes meet the gaze
of another, and another, smiling
and soon many others as you notice
that they lower their heads no more
it is impossible to hear them
but through the dust you can see
their mouths moving with resolve
and with a newfound dignity
the likes of which you've never seen
you cannot possibly hear their song
through this gut-wrenching noise
or can you? it does not matter
you spontaneously start singing along
you do not know of the song you sing
but as a teardrop forms in your eye
drips from your cheek, falling
down to the burning pavement
you trust that all that was made
can be undone
and that things
are about to change
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